THE FIRST KISS........OR SO.........

the room was small with a window......... and somewhere a leaking tap

he made me sit on the only chair .........with my handbag on my lap

the shield which saves me all the time and even when the need is not

cornered rabbit is what comes in mind but the feeling inside said its not

a candle burning behind,making it difficult for my myopic eyes

and my efforts to see in his eyes made me overhear some of his sighs

whats going on in his mind cant he just tell me exactly so

my imagination or truth is it the first kiss..............or so...

his eyes looking up straight at mine...........i hope he missed what i usually do

squinting my left eye when i usually dont want to

oh hell does it matter when he is comin closer and looking so intent

oh what will i do and who the hell had the kiss to invent

oh something must have struck him coz he opened his mouth

and then he said something which almost made me run south

i wanna kiss you.....he must be insane or i just feel it so

who in his right mind wants to give me the first kiss...........or so

he stood up bending his head and bent further to bring his lips close to mine

i swear i think i thought i was in panic as if i was in a landmine

i ducked him twice and thought i did pretty good in avoiding him

but it took effort more than it should and i felt the situation so grim

he smiled at me and said its OK and you are just so afraid

and i couldnt argue that coz i second the motion what he already said

was i happy or was i sad,i dont want to think that way and so...

for now the danger passed of what i thought of a would be ,first kiss ........or so

i got up lightening fast and grabbed my bag,the shield i had

its getting late,i have to leave i blurted all excuses that i had

he stood silent,no word i hear and just then i felt how close he stood

i felt his hands cup my face,my eyes went to his face,my body should move,uff only if it could

his face carved out in solid stone,no lines to soften the face i knew

something made me go still as rock,and panic oh panic so much oh.......phew

the candle light which was still burning proud without a flicker or so

and i was about to witness my first ever kiss...............or so

i think i heard NO escape out of my lips or or else i will kill myself

and his lips touched mine and my remaining witts went off to a distant shelf

hot,warm or mellow.....soft no with my eyes shut,something else

my lips trembled and the mind was fogged and still something distinct just tells

not aware of any other part of my whole body existed in that moment

my heart,my lungs,my brain which was now i feel was a little dement

beated,breathed and thought from my lips,my whole body nothing but my lips and i felt it so

i was experiencing a wonder......... my first kiss .......or so

and then his lips left me,but his hands stayed on my face

comeon if i had to run,i would have done it before and like i was in a race

i dint open my eyes and my hands kept trembling as they were before

i parted my lips to breath as a drowning person does when he touches the shore

and then his lips were again on mine and this time i was aware of something

from my curling toes to my tightened fists,my thudding heart and everything

all those stories and novels and others experiences or so

didnt prepare me at all and i might just sue them,coz i know the first kiss .....or so

the lips parted again his setlled on my forehead i think or i imagined

well dont blame me coz u cant understand what it really feels when pinned

and even if you do it was not an everyday thing which happened that day

so better appreciate and gimme some word of advice as to how i deal with it and in what way

there are few things in life which have no reason and no particular aftermath if i think

you come this close to something and just stop somehow on the brink

it was not bad is all i remember ,it was not great is what i want to think or so

oh when it is over i am confused what i call it.....my first kiss ....or so.......

Shh..........